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New song on Youtube
​Shattered, right now!!
Written March 3rd , 2022

A little framing: You know I wanted to make a video, but it didn't work out that way. I had 7 days of rest since I decided that enough was enough. Since I realized that the only one fighting my battle, is me. Since I became okay with that, because although I am fighting it alone, I am not, and I never will be again. And I realized only at that point I actually started fighting, by letting go off what I thought I needed, wanted or even deserved. And that freed me.

It also frees me from doing what I think I should be doing. Today I didn't get to finish a video, I did get to record it, and I have prepared my in and out credit and a picture fitting to me. I most def. took it when my life as I knew it was completely shattered, and all I was left with was right here. I had no idea, and I still don't, where I am going. This was me waiting to get my address changed! I have been here, right here, ever since, still shattered though, heartbreak is...

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Side note 
​It was called "Scattered, right now!!" until today 2.03.2022,
when it became "Shattered" without a doubt...

scattered
/ˈskatəd/
adjective

1. occurring or found at intervals or various locations rather than all together.
   "the forecast is for scattered showers"
2. INFORMAL
   distracted or disorganized.
   "with so much on her plate, however, she can be a bit scattered"

shattered
/ˈʃatəd/
adjective

1. very upset
   "he was said to be absolutely shattered after losing his job"
2. INFORMAL
   exhausted.
   "I usually feel too shattered to do more than crawl into bed"