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It ain’t finished
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Don't prevent yourself, choose yourself
Written Nov 4th, 2021
Don't prevent yourself, choose yourself
Written Nov 4th, 2021
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This is very personal but I wrote this last night after having a great conversation about making choices and "preparing" for the future. Or the threat of the future, as it sometimes seems to be one. I got an insight afterwords and wrote this:
You literally said that in preparing for the future, you want to avoid the problem before it occurs. You want to be ahead of the future. you want to make a choice thinking it can prevent something from happening; but we don’t know the future. We can hope for it, and look forward to it! But it’s in the preventing that we get stuck in not living in the now. Because you don’t prevent, you create your future/past. The only way to be ahead of the future is by being here now. Only dealing with what IS, now! Everything else is a distraction. When you prevent one thing, something else “to be prevented” will present itself, is that how you want to live your life? You often say I’m hiding, but there is a difference in taking time to heal and to get stronger and move slowly rather than not really wanting to move at all because than change really might happen, and you might have to take controle over how you shape your future. When you do, you realize opportunity presents itself, and you have a choice, and when you make a choice, “good” or “bad” another one will present itself. You heal, you deal, you choose, you repeat. I never prevented. I did know how to decide when something ended. The reasons why you do things or don’t, what you create by choosing an opportunity, that is what defines who you are. To choose = To create To create = To choose AGAIN 'N AGAIN That’s how you figure out who you are. By being him! You. Not by preventing yourself from being because you fear what the outcome might be. that’s like saying you don’t have a choice. But what you are, is a creator. No body can take that away from you. It means that when you choose, your mindset is clear, you know why you choose, so it’s done and new opportunities will present themselves. Just don’t be disappointed when things don’t turn out "as promised”. No body, knows the future. So maybe just start with today! What do you want today, and what are you gonna do about it? I feel blessed because this morning I prayed and I asked for answers for myself. And I stand by "Trust what is" because as I listened for answers I heard:
"You already have everything you need right here" AMEN!
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And then I went online and I read this article below by Meggan Watterson! And now I am determined to learn more about what Mary Magdalene's gospel hold for my life and I am sharing because it might be what you've been looking for...
So I ordered the book Mary Magdalene Revealed The First Apostle, Her Feminist Gospel & the Christianity We Haven't Tried Yet |
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A song in the making...
I know the song sounds pretty bad. I even took a break from writing it today. And I prayed! I prayed! God, I prayed for insight, for patience, for understanding, the right words... It was a mighty long prayer! What I describe in these two verses, is how I feel. Right now, Today. But I also feel, liberated! Because I am able to face "what is" because of it! Not perfect by far! I always go into letting go like a kid, you know kicking and screaming but... it means I am also moving through that feeling, and little by little I'm moving away from it. Doesn't make sense? It's not my first heartbreak. It won't be the last. It's not my first break up - it might not be my last! I was so mindful this time, and yet! It's not my first time dealing with a lot of change in my situation because of a relationship not working out,... but you know what? I am still here. I did let it shape me, It helped me shape myself into who I am today and I am actually proud of who I am today! Even though I am hurting, even though the world as I've known it for the past 3 years is crumbling and falling apart,... (Well, it's more a lot of hopes and dreams for the future that where linked to the past 3 years...) I am not. (and a lot of dreams and hopes remain, so this time, let's not forget about that!) This time I know: "Things change". Even when we are looking right at it! Even when we do our very best, life can surprise us, and that can go both ways... My situation is demanding me to be patient. Something I have learned a ton of in the past 2 years or has it been the past 21 years. Now that patience is really being tested. A lot of things have to fall into place. A new home, a new job, a different way to live my life. I don't want to go back to anything, I want to move forward but now more than ever although there is an urgency in moving on, I realize that like with everything else I really started to face this year, it's one step at a time. |
So I prayed!
For the right words, and although they are not coming from me I feel lucky I found them today. Please don't shy away from insight because you see a bible verse... Do let me know what it meant to you.
Did you get some insight from it? For now I am putting this song aside until I, myself find the right words to have you understand that although a lot of my hopes and dreams for the future are crumbling and falling apart,... I am not.
So I am gonna be patient in this season of change and when I come out on the other side of this situation, I am gonna finish this song. I hope AGAIN 'N AGAIN can be a testimony of a moment in my life where I came to an understanding that no matter what happens, I can trust myself in trusting Him. Because I will fail, we all will. That's why we are here. I want to trust that fact. I wanna keep trying... okay I already wrote that as a prayer in "When you come to all" but let THIS song be a testimony of my own circumstance. I hurt myself in hoping that someone I loved wouldn't hurt me and I learned that doing the best that I can, holds no guarantee. I am very much just as capable of hurting someone I love. I can reveal that for myself, lessons like standing up for myself, making decisive choices, and protecting my boundaries with love for myself first can only aid in damage controle. In me not hurting others so much and for me not having to hurt for too long. Cause pain is a sign, it's there to help you understand that it's time for change - something along those lines... See you on the other side (of this situation, when the song is done.) |
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