Busking in Antwerp
Tomorrow, I have a gig
Written 10th March 2022
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Well, it feels like summer so why not act like it is. I'm not gonna be caught by the beach in my bikini just jet. But it is inviting weather to find a bench in the sun, to get out my fave instrument and to sing my heart out!
So today as I was gonna be out and about looking for a new job, I had my ukulele with me, ready to play. Whenever. Wherever. I stopped at the station, obviously because I had to be there, but I mean, I stopped, paused to look around, for a good spot. Prayed!! and still started walking thinking - there is probably a good spot in the sun somewhere on the Meir. Of course I was not the only one that felt this way today so I couldn't find a spot. I wasn't too sad about it so I kept walking. Then I considered I know this little square where I love stopping to just listen to a sweet violinist so I started walking there. Of course I found him already gracefully filling the spot. So I did stop to listen, had a small talk but started walking again, considering I still had some calls and I still had to eat. |
Then I realized as I came up to my own square, right by my door, I could play right here. So, I sat down. Bravely! Ready to play.
I didn't! I didn't even take out my ukulele. I took out my notebook and did feel immensely inspired by the fact that I had been completely unable to just play, anytime, anywhere and still couldn't come around to it. So! Tomorrow, I have a gig! I have some calls and a meeting but they end and by the time you are done with work and you are passing by this ideal tiny square that I am referring to you might catch this blondie with her Ukulele playing a set that I did prepare just for "the masses as it passes". Tomorrow Tomorrow, I have a gig Because I couldn't find my spot today I am claiming one tomorrow I don't care what the voices say |
Today they kept me walking
my heart beating in my chest Today they kept on talking but I am putting them to rest Tomorrow IS a better day because I know exactly where I'll play You'll find me in this little square just around the corner I hope that you won't be afraid to just come a little closer I'll be busking So I'll spend some time busking 'cause I want your dime It'll be my motivation to share these songs of mine so tomorrow I have a gig Because I couldn't find my spot today I am claiming one tomorrow I don't care what the voices say Tomorrow IS a better day because I know exactly when I'll play Today! ©Written by Casey |
Time to get back to business!!
Not really...
Written 1st March 2022
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FROM THIS 2020 - 2021
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TO THIS 2022 - ...
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I have to admit, living in the city, is noisy!
So recording without background noise is a thing of the past. I have to deal with it, as I am high sensitive to sound, I wear my Loops 24hours a day now, even while recording. I only take em out to mix and master. And yes, it's a lot, but I don't care. It's where I'm at. If anything is more authentic then the sounds of my surroundings then I don't know what is. It screams "never the same". If you don't know, that is the alluded title of my still to drop debut album, and anything I do, anything that happens just adds more significance to it! I found my truth in that short 3 word sentence. Is it a sentence? I think it is. Never the same. Well, what is never the same is how i spend my time. 3 months ago I found myself in a new appartement, a new job and at the beginning of new chapter. And it's been an adventure, a challenge to say the least. And just when I had my heart set on a vacai to focus on my music, it seems God had something else in mind. Something else in mind Peace and quiet. Nothingness. Playfulness. Quiet time spend looking at Mila (my babygirl, my cat), taking care of her, taking care of myself. Enjoying what seems to feel like the beginning of summer sitting on my balcony for the first time with a summer salade and some soulful music just looking out on an amazing blue sky for hours and hours. Considering thoughts that pass through here and there, about all that I've lost and all that I have now. Allowing tears, and midnight screams as they help me to release the tensions in my body that deals with letting go, and letting it go. And now 4 days in, I find myself working on my website in a hot, relaxing bath. It's cold actually, just a sec let me add some hot water to it... Theeeere you go. New song on Youtube
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Am I totally selfish?!
Right, so the question on anybody's mind who at this point in time even bothered to read this far anyway: "Do I even know what is going on?" Yes,.. no... no I don't. I "know" what is going on, from what I have been able to watch. Have I had my heart in my mouth and my stomach in my hands because of it? YES!! Am I totally selfish for not saying anything or enjoying my "well deserved vacation, my me-time" I don't know. I pray, I consider what could happen, what might. I allow myself to wonder for a second what I might do, but I have no "real" answers. And the conversations with my friends around the globe, all result in the same conclusive idea. We have to make the best of what we have, with what we have, right now. And when we can do something to make a difference and we feel called to it, I pray for the insight and the courage and strength to act. So I pray for whoever needs it, that they may gain insight and the courage and strength to act. And I pray for people to be safe and healthy and strong... I am empowering it I am here, and here I have no power but the power over my own mind. And I am empowering it, to heal. To be comforted, to be heard, to be inspired, to be creative... And I am. I am so sorry that so many are not able to say this, but I haven't for a long time either and I can only say how amazing it is when you can. So I pray for anyone, everyone who has lost anything to find themselves coming back to it soon enough. To people they love, to loving themselves, to a sense of freedom, hope, a future, to coming home. I am, again. And I am at the beginning of a brand new story. Alone, but never alone again. So if you are curious, look around, click around and feel free to come back anytime. I've got some music coming out, whenever it is ready and I hope it can inspire you to do whatever you love to do. To feel what you need to feel. And to heal what you need to heal. All the best, Casey |