Monday's Release
On Youtube and IGTV
I'll just be getting older than
Written Aug 23rd, 2021
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One of many of my songs on the subject of getting older.
Too often I feel like many older people are there to bring younger people down on getting older. As if it is the last thing you want to do. And when a youngster defends himself saying: "Well I'm gonna go for... or I want to become", they are almost WARNED that things might not go as they hope it might. I'll just be getting older than is just a revision of that moment, what goes through my mind when I am warned yet again. First, the unbelief - it shouldn't be this way and that it should be different (or I feel that way anyway, I do wonder if any of you relate?) and then the realization that in feeling this way I can make sure that I do better. We all can! |
You just wait and see can have 2 very different meanings, depending on who says it and how. I hope to push youngsters to go after their dreams, but just the same I do hope to push people older than me to go for them too.
This is just a snippet of this song. For the finished song you can look forward to my Debut Album #neverthesame - What do you see? coming out by the end of 2021. Keep an eye out for them dates! |
First official single
Today feels like yesterday
Written Aug 16th, 2021
Out NOW
on Apple Music, iTunes, Spotify
& 150+ platforms worldwide
A song about letting go and understanding that moving forward truly means understanding that you can't fight to get something back that you never had. In my case a home when coming from a broken one. But you can find something new and that can be how you imagine it to be. Life is not a perfect fairytale, it takes work and a lot of energy and inspiration and loss to get to where you want to be but it's worth it because it's real and you actually can have an impact on the present and your future.
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Why Today feels like yesterday
as your first official single? Life has always been a bit ironic in my experience and many songs do touch that subject lightly but the irony here is that today will never again feel like yesterday for me. I wrote that song about 6 years ago while I was contemplating giving it all up as I wondered about why I ever got on the journey of being or becoming a songwriter in the first place. I was unsure if my reasons where "clean". I had wanted to go home for so long, and I thought that I might have been trying to become someone that they could approve of. I thought I might have been working to become someone they might like and accept. Although I left and somehow knew that it was necessary, I had struggled with my decision since day one. But I left because it wasn't a home in the first place and because they didn't accept me for who I was. |
This song is the 1st song I wrote as I realized that. I had been holding on so I couldn't fully move on, it was holding me back. I had let it by not making that conclusion after I had already made the decision.
But it's only now that I get to release the song, knowing how much I have grown since than and how much the song has I can let go. Yesterday is gone, and I can finally, not try to but look forward. I feel like out of all the songs in the album it might also be the most relatable at this point in time as the world is coming out of lockdown. I can't wait to see what it could possibly mean to anyone else. |
ANNOUNCEMENT
Release second official single
That's alright
Written Aug 5th, 2021
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Excited, thrilled, exhilarated, delighted!!
All of the above! "Today feels like yesterday" was a song about letting go and understanding that moving forward truly meant understanding that you can't fight to get something back that you never had. But you can create something new. You can find something new and that can be how you imagine it to be. Life is not a perfect fairytale, it takes work and a lot of energy and inspiration to get to where you want to be but it is worth it because it's real and you actually have an impact on the present and your future. In "Today feels like yesterday" we only came to an understanding that we can't move forward holding on to well, shoulda, coulda, woulda's. "That's alright" is about finding that one thing you can hold onto. You may not remember everything right, but often we hold on to memories that make us want to give up and that is just not helpful. So there might be a lot of reasons to think that you aren't worthy of better (in your own mind - because nobody has the right to tell you that you are un-worthy of anything) but when you realize you have a voice always speaking to you and you actually can talk back, a conversation starts that is very valuable. Because in telling that voice it's wrong, you are being strong, and you get to be wise and loving and caring for yourself and you actually can get that voice to be on your team. But you have to be kind, and get to know that voice. |
In this song you kinda hear me speaking to my inner voice.
Hopefully setting an example and letting you know, really deeply feel that it is gonna be alright. Slowly but surely, yes. It does take time and a lot of work but once you understand that you can do this, you understand that you always have someone who is there for you! YOU! It's always been that way but for a lot of us it takes about a half a lifetime to understand that that is the case. So you are not alone in that. I'm the first person who loves spending time alone but doesn't like to feel alone. I do struggle with that although it's not really a feeling I get because of others. It's when I don't seem to get into a good conversation with myself, when I get distracted too long or just listen to that voice too long. That's when I get lost. I see many of us struggle with this inner battle and we all need to hear that we don't deserve that. "I know you deserve better than that" That's alright
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I do what I do
because I love what I do
Ode to the "false" spamming promotors on my insta page
Written Aug 3rd, 2021
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This post has been seen 42 times at this moment. NOT 2.851 times!!
Real numbers
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I am not looking to be "promoted"
nor to gain false "attention" I feel I have something to share that might help in someone's struggles and general experiences in life and love. So I would rather have, and I am very proud when I have 5 people watching who are touched by the music and message, than this false amount of watchers under my post(s). NOT interested! NO!! Let it be known that I am not interested in promoters! Well, I am. I am interested in genuine ones that care about the music and my niche audience that I hope to find/touch, for sure. I care about people who share my posts in their stories with their friends for the right reasons. I love that! But for this post, that has not been the case. I know who did this and this person (that is now blocked) did not share where they shared my content and just told me it was put on a server. But I can see my statistics and can see that these are not real views. I don't want them. I don't care for them. I don't even care for likes. There are 1000's of posts by now that have impacted me and made me feel a certain kind of better even though I didn't like or follow. I AM HERE I'm not here to play a game of popularity. I am here to offer what I have to offer to the people that do genuinely want to follow my page. "What are you talking about? I don't even see any spamming promoters on your page" you say. I go through my followers and I delete fake accounts. I delete the spamming promoters that don't even watch my posts but go through 5 videos that lasts minutes in 5 seconds to tell me how amazing they are, or how "talented" I am. Thank you for your support and love and kindness. I don't need to be told how amazing I am or my posts are. Of course I welcome a compliment and I am very grateful and appreciative for any show of love and support or when you share the impact on you. I don't need any compliments or confirmation of any kind only for the sake of advertising "promotion". I do what I do, because I love what I do. I am here because I know that loving something is what makes a day worthwhile. So I'm just here to maybe make someone's day, to have my music and message be part of a moment, a memory. Hoping to inspire other's to do what they love too. Hoping to inspire You, to go after your dream(s). |